liyana,

I could not quite wrap my head around this. 

But I was told that this was what had happened. I promise sayang,  I will do my best to be delicate.

When the doctor left you in the emergency room and asked your family to sit down. Everyone sat and gathered around him. 

Everyone was hopeful.

Everyone wished for miracle. Everyone wanted God on their side.

That split second was the heaviest.

It was intense. It stretched the membrane of time to its thinnest.

A very fragile time line.

All it took was a single head shake from the doctor.

And someone heard a wail. Inexplicably loud.

It turned out to be your father’s.

Think I need to lie down. I can't. I can't really process this.

I promise I will get back to you. 

I always have, you know that. Just this time you're not playing fair.

chairil